Oh, Baby Graf, this Clomid has got me dreaming crazy dreams and thinking crazy thoughts. Not actually crazy. Really, quite beautiful and insightful, if I do say so myself. I’ve recently made a strong effort to not take any medications. I have had to take a couple advil on 2 different occasions, but absolutely not antibiotics, no caffeine, no over-the-counter creams, and no sinus meds other than the Clomid.
I’ve been really grounded lately. Like, grounded to the Earth. I feel very balanced and capable. I feel strong in nature and I feel like there are so many good things ahead. I don’t know if that’s the Clomid, or just result of all the hard work that we (your Dad and I) put into this life we live. I spent hours on the hammock yesterday listening to “Sugar Man” by Rodriguez on repeat on my iPod. It was brilliant. I love that song and although it’s about drugs, it has a lullaby feel to me and I can’t get enough of it.
Your Dad and I; we are so happy. We have been so happy for years.
I love him and even better, he loves me.
I think about how much I will love you and I know that I just can’t comprehend it. Whatever love I have known, no matter how great, will not even compare to the way I will live for you. Right now, it’s difficult to think about being more dedicated to anyone other than Wade. It’s mysterious and magical to me and I can’t wait to experience it.
I want to keep it as pure as possible.
Blessings, little one.