For the longest time, my goal has been to not get pregnant. Seriously, from the second my hormones started raging, I was hell-bent to not get “the worst disease of all – a baby.”
I know that sounds terrible, but it’s true. I referred to a summer in the upper peninsula of Michigan with my best friend and college roommate as birth control bootcamp. We commonly referred to children as “jellies” because they get their insane power and energy from sugar. During our more experimental years, in college, we literally thought of getting pregnant as “the worst disease of all.”
Sure, there was a hint of sarcasm in there, but really, that scared us more than anything. I’m glad it did. Now that I so badly want to be a mom, I realize more than ever that I was in no way prepared to give a child what he/she (5 years ago, I would have typed “it” right there) deserves. Well, here we are. I’m 30. Wade’s 28. I feel like both of our souls are a generation older than our years and we want to get pregnant.
I don’t know if these blogs are for us, for family or for our unborn child, who isn’t even a twinkle in my eye yet. I’m sure I’ll love to look back at this when he/she is grown to remember all the ups and downs. I’m sure grandparents, aunts, and uncles will love to check-in and see how little Wade or Coty Jr. is doing. I’m sure that when Wade or Coty Jr. is in extensive therapy because of issues with his/her parents, this blog will be a way to help figure out where things went so wrong. I kid. I kid.
So, the path begins and you’re invited to walk it with us. It actually started 3 months ago, when I got off birth control. It was quite an experience after 15 years. Seriously, 15 years. I feel like someone lifted a veil off of my eyes. I’m certainly more emotional. I haven’t noticed worse PMS, but I have noticed stronger headaches. Oh, hormones.
Since we’re getting pretty close to the wedding and we want to waste no time getting knocked up, I downloaded an EPT app a couple of weeks ago. You put in the first day of your last period and the length of your cycle and it tells you when you’re ovulating. We got a good laugh this morning when I got an email that said, “This is a friendly reminder that it’s ovulation time.” Well, needless to say, there’s a new bootcamp scheduled for this week and it’s quite the opposite of the “Birth Control Bootcamp.”